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Fri March 21, 2003 2:08:26 AM
Ohhhhhh and by the way………
CUCUMBER!!!!!!!!
HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!
love is love
til next time
U-already-know-who;-)
Fri March 21, 2003 1:12:58 AM
To my dear WARRIORS,
Its a strange time, aint it? In the air you feel it….I think today GOD was crying for us. It rained all day non stop. I think God is saddened by the selfishness of man, the superficiatity and the superiority complex that is leading us to GOD only knows where. He gave us choice, he gave us a mind that’s limitless in his likeness and we’ve only used it to destroy, to use people and for monitary gain. Caring nothing of the repercussions. We’re is love?? Where is she hiding?? I’m saddened by it too, I have to admit. At times my mind wanders, and I start to think of the worst of things, of the way that things could be at its darkest point, I think of how I felt when I saw images of my own hometown after 9-11 and at a breif look I thought it was the middle east, or some war ridden country….but it was here! and I was humbled and numbed by the possibilties…of how Much we’ve always takin for granted.
I’m reading a book by Julia Alverez. Its an AMAZING book called “In the time of the butterflyz” (oops butterflies:-) Funny thing is I read it in High school, in the 11th grade. I had this teacher I didn’t really like (I don’t think I liked much on ANYONE then:-) plus it was required reading. I remember it affecting me, but I don’t think I internalized it the way I am now. I had been talking about it, saying how much a REALLY wanted to read it again, now. As if by magic or a sweet prayer being answered, a lady by the name of Ayana sent it to me (if you visit this site…..thank you!!!) And thats how I came to read it again. Amazingly enough it is about the dictatorship in the Dominican republic and all the lies and deciet and propoganda that was told as truths and people were forced to believe and support the government or pay serious consequences. The book is about 4 sisters who helped to begin the revolution that would free the country from the cruel rule of the regime. As I read it now, I see more parrallels than I care to acknowledge..it seems almost as if this book is describing our state now and it shocks me to see how everything is unfolding. This book takes place from the 40′s through the 90′s.
Here we are in 2003 and it continues….
The thing is, I know we will ALWAYS have to fight for what is right, that is the struggle of life. I just wish I felt like this was for the right reasons. But when is war ever right? I know its something that is almost inevitable…but I sure wish it wasn’t!
I don’t feel down tho. yes its natural to feel alittle fear when it comes to the unknown, because we don’t know exactly what’s happening..we get little bits and peices but never the whole story, so we feel vunerable, even ignorant in some cases..and thats scary. But we can’t feel depressed about it, We have to search more we have to “search 4 the truth” we have to listen beyond just the words spoken to what is unspoken and always know that GOD is with us and Pray for understanding and direction. Sometimes you have to step back and analyze to find the way….we are all tryign to figure out the right way, to get invoved, to make a difference, to make a change…..
The other morning, I couldnt sleep, I woke up around 5:30am. The sky was unbelievable. it was the color of infinity. Thats the only way I can describe it
it was a soft lavender and everything else was dark. Everything was still and in that moment I felt the greatest peace I’ve ever felt….So I know it exists. I felt calm, I felt like all the answers were there to be found. I felt GOD’s presence!
We aren’t alone my Soldiers. we are the youth. we are the leaders. There is nothing to fear because we are all in this together, they may try to seperate us with, race, religion, hate and war, but nothing can stop us from rising, nothing can stop our spirits from triumph. They may want to live divided, but we choose to b united
dont let anything get inbetween us as we figure out the rest….
to the ongoing search
to no fear
to change
to the family!
lellow
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