Mon April 21, 2003 2:47:56 AM
I’m obviously in a talkative mood;-)

But as I drift among yall I realized somethin’ REALLY important!
There’s ALWAYS a better way things can be said.
Let me clarify….

Everyone who comes here I consider my family. That’s for real! The reason is because your here, with thoughts and ideas. Your here because we all have different opinions to share. Your here cause we have fun. Your here because we challange each others minds and thoughts and so we obviously have a connection or you wouldn’t be here! And neither would I! It’s that simple. Dont get it twisted. I’m proud of Yall, every single one of yall cause were all out here tryin to find our way, and that takes alot! and everyday that we’ve been blessed to get up, we’ve made it one step closer!

Ive never seen a place like this, were people come together and talk about REAL shit! Things that make you wonder, cry, laugh….FEEL
That’s what we got here! and THATS what makes us family!
Anything else doesn’t even need our focus.

Nothing breaks the ties of what’s real! Only time tells all else!
That goes for EVERYTHING in life and THAT was a better way to say what I meant.

FEEL me on this!

P.s Sometimes hate just needs love

Mon April 21, 2003 12:46:24 AM
I’ve been thinking….

someone once said, “We don’t see things as THEY are, we see things as WE are”

The other day I posed a hypothetical question, “Are we reflections of what we see?”

I mean in many ways, it’s obvious that we are. How could we not b. Of course, what surrounds us does affect us, but HOW much? is it as much as we let it? as much as we choose to accept it? as much as it stays around us?

But even as you go away from situations that affect you, they can still linger…In your personality, in your security, in the way you think, the things you do, what you accept from another.

The question is if you only see hate, will you also only hate? If you experience abuse, or alot of pain, will you only abuse and cause pain? If GOD forbid, you’ve constantly seen your father mistreat your mother, will you mistreat your wife, or accept mistreatment from your husband?

are we only prisoners of our circumstances?

I do feel, and I KNOW, that it is soooo dificult to move on from things that have really affected you in your past, to let it go, to come to terms with something that really pains your heart,

but how much do you think we subconciously hang on to things, because we are used to feeling negativity and its much easier to swim in it, than really look at how what others may have done to us does not define us as we decide to define ourselves.

I mean, at what point is it enough? at what point do you begin your own life? at what point do we stop blaming EVERYONE else and begin to look at ourselves as the masters of our own lives and really try to see what is our pain and try to get past it so it doesnt haunt us for the rest of our lives, and turn us into stone…….

It’s hard when it hurts to leave it behind…like the statement, I forgive you but I wont forget….do you think its possible to really forgive someone or yourself, if you always have it in your memory?

I don’t know, I wonder…..

A.